She could imagine the disappointment in her mother's eyes. That would be the worst consequence she would face if any of this ever came to light. This twisted secret that she had some how fallen into. All by her own design. She knew exactly what it was she was getting into, yet instead of turning around and running she raced head on towards her own demise. And it didn't stop at the first time, it didn't stop when her life became jeopardized. In fact it didn't stop at all. The rush was too great, the need was always there, this dark secret. Her desire, and passion led her astray from the path she had struggled so long to follow. What she had done was not who she was. Who was she kidding? There was nothing glamorous, beautiful, or attractive about the life she had chosen to live. And she was a slut. The men she had fallen into bed with meant a little bit of the world to her, but she meant nothing to them. Nothing but a good time at least. How could she have fallen so low? How could she let this happen to herself? How could she even begin to start over. Who would accept her and her past? So she walked on hoping that for once the past could slip away and that the skeleton's in her closet wouldn't come to life to follow her.
"You could face them."
"Face who?" Did he expect her to confront the few men she had ever loved?
"Your demons." The ones in my head...
"I can't do that. I'm not strong enough, my past has proved that."
"In the past you didn't have me." He said with a smile as he took her hand. She knew as he said it that he was right. She could do it because she had him. He was the factor that didn't exist before. He gave her the hope to become someone else, to become who she had once been. A woman, of strength, power, pride, self assurance, and humility. A woman worth loving.
He saw the thoughts flash in her eyes, if only she could see, she was always worth loving. Even in her darkest moment he had loved her. He wanted nothing more than to be the man worthy of her despite her mistakes, because despite her flaws she was kind loving and selfless. Yes, selfless.He loved her, if only she could see that it is because of her, who she was, is, will be. If only she could see.
"You could face them."
"Face who?" Did he expect her to confront the few men she had ever loved?
"Your demons." The ones in my head...
"I can't do that. I'm not strong enough, my past has proved that."
"In the past you didn't have me." He said with a smile as he took her hand. She knew as he said it that he was right. She could do it because she had him. He was the factor that didn't exist before. He gave her the hope to become someone else, to become who she had once been. A woman, of strength, power, pride, self assurance, and humility. A woman worth loving.
He saw the thoughts flash in her eyes, if only she could see, she was always worth loving. Even in her darkest moment he had loved her. He wanted nothing more than to be the man worthy of her despite her mistakes, because despite her flaws she was kind loving and selfless. Yes, selfless.He loved her, if only she could see that it is because of her, who she was, is, will be. If only she could see.
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